Hubby’s auntie is leaving next month. We gave it a try but it didn’t work out so back to Pinas she goes. It means I’ll have to cook during week nights for next day’s meal. It also means we cannot just book our GP or dentist or our social life as easily. Even more so it means I would have to ask my bossing for flexible working hours. You’ve heard it before “ang hirap ng walang katulong”.

But as I keep telling hubby, if these westerners can do it, why can’t we? Actually, we managed to do it for 2 years, auntie was only here for 5 months. It’s just the lazy bones have been too comfy in their current state. The looming “inconveniences” are the real killer. Whether you’re in Pinas or abroad we all have the same domestic chores to finish coming home from work. It sucks but that’s life.

So this early, hubby & I are already in transition phase. He has to pick up the ironing as with my busted elbow I cannot do that anymore. We also need to synchronise our schedules & activities. One example, in days he takes Kelvin to the nursery, I need to be in the office by 7am so I can leave by 4′ish & pick up our son. But hubby also must not forget to take out the meat/fish from the freezer so it’s thawed by the time our son is in bed (8pm). By 8pm I should have finished reading the story for the night, proceed to fold the dried clothes, put more laundry in the washing & cook the meal for tomorrow. Around 9pm hopefully this time around I am still okay to relax or do some exercise.

Well, Houston it’s back to normal.

Dumating na ang tulong na inaasahan namin. Siya na ang mag-aasikaso ng karamihan ng household chores na talagang di ko na nagagampanan. Aalalayan din naman namin syang mag-asawa pero at least yung day to day running ng bahay e di ko na pro-problemahin. At in around 5 months’ time, siya na ang magiging nanny ni bebe.

Malalagay na sa government sponsored preschool si bebe by September. 3 hours sya dun then the rest of the time si tita na titingin sa kanya. When that happens, she doesn’t have to tinker around the house as much. We’ve told her that the reason we ‘hired’ her is to have someone look after bebe when he moves to the local school.

Ilang araw pa lang naman sya pero yung burdened feeling talagang nawala na. Di ko nga alam na ganun ako ka-anxious pala but in the 2 days I’ve been back to work, for the first time in 2 years, parang mas relaxed ako. Relaxed ang isip ko na safe ang anak ko, relaxed ang isip ko na di ko kelangang magmadaling umuwi etc etc.

Siempre may nagging feeling pa din na baka mamaya pakitang tao lang ito. Baka mamaya saktan nya si bebe when they’re alone, etc etc. Pero I believe God will protect my son. And of course, vigilant naman ako. Still I pray daily & nightly na “she” is the one na nga.