I like burloloy. I have this nasty habit of buying accessories but never wearing them. Most of the time I feel like there’s never a good time to do so.

But I like them, especially silver and white gold jewelry.

Imom’s sister just kicked off her online shop called fopperies and by chance a friend was travelling to Pinas (and back) soooo…  I grabbed the opportunity to shop!

Look what I received last week courtesy…

there’s also a bracelet but I forgot to include in the photo

Chat’s sister is very generous! Since I sent the money via remittance, there was some extra pesos left & she gave that very cute Murano red bracelet! Naks! I hope mine wasn’t a buena mano

I very rarely use Pinas online shops/services but when I do find gems, I keep them. With fopperies, it was almost like telling a friend to shop for me! Sherry was quick to reply to my queries & request.

All the items were superb! Actually, it was too late when I realized my mistake was not to buy a few more pieces for Nanay. She was the first to see them & was liking the heart necklace but eventhough I kept telling her to keep it, she still gave it to my balikbayan friend.

Ohh yeah, I had one more mistake. I bought this lightning pendant  I didn’t realize it was this long… Well at least I will have a fitting accessory if we ever go see another heavy metal concert!

caution: best not to read this while eating

Several weeks ago hubby said his bowel movement has changed. See he’s almost always constipated but now he says he’s always got diarrhea. I diagnosed it (yes I did) as lactose intolerance which he never suffered from until now. I urged him to see the GP anyway just to be sure & perhaps get some tablets for it.

So on & on it went, I’d see hubby absently rubbing his stomach. Sometimes I’d hear his stomach grumble. Then he developed real pain and it’s on the same side where his operation from last year was.

He did go to the GP & asked to be referred to a specialist. Today is he undergoing colonoscopy. For those who don’t know what that is, read the first sentence on the Wikipedia entry & you can imagine the face I made when I knew about it.

There are issues upon issues here.

The most important of course is the line of inquiry all those symptoms are pointing at. Colon cancer. Wow, the big C.

In the name of Jesus, we cancel that possibility and tonight we will go home with smiles on our faces. We can’t wait to testify this coming Sunday.

The next issue is not as big but just as worrisome - at least for me.

My teammate is on-leave and we have a Live release this Friday, which means I really shouldn’t be out of the office.

It’s been bugging me for days. Why can’t I sort out my priorities? What am I scared of? What are the REAL big issues in my life?

To some, this dilemma may seem crazy, a none issue. And you’re Blessed to have that conviction. Me, I’m still growing a backbone.

I remembered what I read that if you are with God, then your life priorities are re-aligned to His Will and you will want to fulfill His purpose.

I am my husband’s katuwang, his partner. He needs my support and I have to be by side.

Tuesday night I emailed my bossing to say I will take the afternoon off today.

As a church elder said, nothing in this life is bigger than God. And I believe that will all my heart.

I realized now, fear really has no place in my life. Ito pala yung claim nila when they say they are “victorious with Jesus Christ”.

A friend once said I am a sentimental fart, and it’s true, I am.

I count the few friends I have as God’s Blessing for He knows I have so many issues and insecurities I need people I can depend on to make me laugh, to lift me up and to make me face reality & bring me down to Earth. I would like to think I am also a Blessing to them, that in little things or ways I add colour and comfort in their lives.

I have lost a friend to Death and it hurt so much. I’ve also seen some of my friendships fade.

And I just realized that another one is slowly dying.

Maybe I’ve been too busy to notice the dwindling emails, the delayed or sometimes lack of response. And now I found out that there’s been no how-are-you since the start of the year.

Of course, I reasoned with myself that everyone can be busy, everyone has a life & emails do not matter. When I saw this familiar name on the “People you may know” on Facebook, I reasoned that not hooking up with me doesn’t count. What is FB anyway but a waste of time?!

But when I came home, I didn’t feel the warmth I was expecting. The excitement and thrill was unidirectional.

I felt my heart break. This person meant a lot to me. Sa salitang kalye “idol ko yan“. The guy was my confidante, my rock  and teacher.

I should dig deeper and we could talk about this. But I’ve been asking myself if it’s worth it. It’s not something I’d want to do. Beg or ask for a friendship extension? At least that’s what it feels like to me. If you are my friend, you are my friend for life & even if you live in the moon.

How difficult is it to maintain a friendship really?

You don’t buy your friends. Same as every normal person on Earth, all I ask is their presence in my life and these days, it’s virtual anyway. Apparently even low maintenance friendships are hard to maintain.

Yes, yes, I am one sad-chip-on-the-shoulder-looney. But as I said, I am a sentimental fart and like the memories I collect, I did hope that my friend will be a friend forever.

———

Photo credit: http://www.stockvault.net/

pogiBoy’s become interested in poetry very recently. I was helping him memorise a simple one about a caterpillar fretting about becoming a butterfly.

When we came to part where the caterpillar asks “will i still recognize myself — in wings?” pogiBoy got excited.

He just remembered the experiment they did in his nursery back when he was 4-years old. He tried to describe what happened:

The caterpillar eats and eats.

Then he lives in a…*scratches his head*… a coconut.

Then he grows wings, mum.

Sounds family?

I am BUSY.

I have a couple of things I need to deal with & I want to complete before the end of the month, so blogging is taking a backseat.

I thought of linking my tweets here but I can’t be bothered to even login to Twitter from my crackberry.

The only leisure I indulge in nowadays is Facebook but since I am all-alone-by-my-lonesome at the moment (nag-holiday teammate ko), talaga namang hanggang bumbunan ang trabaho.

I could relax and not try to complete some of my tasks within August but pogiBoy is back in school this coming September & that means time is even from critical.

Not that many people out there cares, but there’s my excuse just in case you come in here & there’s been no update.

To those who do care salamat