11.Junchange is a good thing
I have decided to change a couple of things in myself and in my life. Yeah, this is going to be a sappy post.
Q4 2008 my watch stopped ticking. After 26 years, I decided I don’t need one anymore. My mobile phone tells me the date and time anyway. I hate the habit I developed of always looking at my wristwatch when I’m not doing anything or worse when I’m doing something & I seem to time every action, every word.
I thought it would be difficult. I hate being late, I am a stickler for following schedules, but nothing has changed. I felt liberated. Okay I’m not completely free, I do check my phone for time. But now I’m not chained. When I’m in church or in a meeting, I don’t have the urge to whip out my phone ‘just to check the time’. I can concentrate more.
I have also made the biggest jump of my life. It’s a move I have never thought I will ever do.
I’ve become a Born-again Christian.
There are many definitions about what it means to be a born-again. Here are some. In Pinas they’re called by so many derogatory terms. People would say “ayan na yung praise-the-lord“. Praning. I wasn’t very fond of them either. Some of them badger you, others walk and talk like you’re all condemned. Sila lang ang masasagip.
I insisted that they have no monopoly over the term “Christian”. Catholics, Baptists, x-tists… We’re all Christians because we believe Jesus Christ is God’s Holy Son. Actually I still think this.
The difference though is the real acceptance. You know, accepting that He is your Saviour and accepting everything that follows after that declaration.
I have been feeling lost and without direction for a long time. The Sunday masses at the Catholic church weren’t sufficient. I tried to get in touch with some Catholic groups but to no avail.
It’s a long story how I have finally decided to make the jump of all jumps. But all I can say is I have never been happier and more at peace with myself (and the world). Finally I really know I cannot control everything, I don’t need to. He’s in-charge.
I’m not holier than everyone else. I’m still me. I’m just better.
And you know what? I still want to change. There’s a lot of work to do.
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congratulations!
you are almost there, but not yet!
it is a lot of work to do, it is true.
I am a Jehovah’s Witness because I believe it is the true religion base in the Bible.
I was baptised ten years ago.
And to dedicate our lives to our God, is not easy.
I experienced also what you said , but in your heart you are the only one who knows how you could serve God, better according to His will found in his words in the Bible.
ALL THE BEST!
Guard your steps, Satan will be watching you to get you off from your decision to serve God.
Stay close to God, and He will stay close to you!
again, congrats and be strong!
I am not very religious but having been brought up by Agustinian nuns in my elementary years and having stayed in a catholic school for half of my life as a teacher, I think I have to find Him like you have. You’re lucky. I am still trying to find meaning to everything I had been brought up with.
Francesca, salamat. I still have a lot to learn. Pero wala talagang bola, I’ve never been more at peace & that’s what affected me most of all.
hi tito Rolly, yes I am blessed, it just took me a long time to gather up the courage to actually seek answers and the steps led me to Him. I would say take your time, but in truth, I know it’s cliche, but there’s no better time to make a move than now.
I don’t know what you say in cases like this. I mean what’s the appropriate term. Is it congratulations? Anyway all i really want to say is I am happy for you. Things like these are hard to find and I’m glad you found it.
Although I cannot imagine myself converting to another religion, I must say there are a lot of things I don’t believe anymore. But I still believe religion is just a way of life, not our destination.
Auee, I am glad you made the move. LIfe is so much happier and better with Him in your life. We are sinners and sometimes, we stumble and fall, but that is okay. God knows that, and he forgives.