Holiday is almost a foreign concept to me back in Pinas. When I go to other places, I call them gala.

Tipong lilibot ako for the first sa Boracay o Puerto Galera. Matagal na yung annual leave na 1 week. Nang maging OFW ako by accident, natatawa ko sa mga Briton dahil sobrang keen silang mag-holiday.

Less than a year though I was nearly always in tears, missing the familiarity and comfort of “home”. I couldn’t wait for my holiday. Big deal na sa akin ang annual leave.

At the age of 26, I felt like an employee. Dati parang college pa din, pa-banjing-banjing lang.

So my 3-week break is over. I did well on my food list and even got to taste some goodies that I didn’t look for. If there’s a downside to the trip it’s that we didn’t have enough time to go to a proper beach. Of course it goes without saying that 21-or-so days aren’t enough but hey maswerte na ko I got that! Besides any longer and we’ll go home dirt poor!

We’re still all on a high. pogiBoy enjoyed Pinas so much he’s been asking when we’ll go back. Hubby gained some weight. He’s more relaxed though from time to time still thinks about the accidental unbudgeted gastos we incurred.

I am definitely relaxed and chilled. Coming back to work with a new Build Release to work on immediately, wala talagang settling in period but I am okay.

There is a shocker though. I was told by bossing in not so many words that the company is in financial trouble. We need a backer soon as we’re not going to break-even in the next three months. There is a general atmosphere of gloom in the company. I feel really sad and torn about this, I don’t want to leave.

One of the girls told me she’s been noticing others do seem to be on the (job) hunt. Like me, she’s reluctant to start searching. Unlike this girl though I have responsibilities to think about, mortgage, a child, a family…My reluctance not just out of loyalty or being in my comfort zone. It took me a long time to find a London job that I really liked and now it seems I’ll have to say goodbye very abruptly.

Maybe we’ll know more by June. In the meantime I really have to force myself to revise my CV and to start updating my net profile.

Eminem is right…  there goes gravity or at least in my case, that is the gravity of the situation.