18.Augtreading silent waters
Why do I have so much pent up rage? I try and try to de-stress and calm myself, but I find myself irritated by the most insignificant matters both at home and at work.
Ang hirap.
Kadalasan sobrang kapal nang balat ko di ako tinatablan nang parinig, nang bias or even straightforward kabastusan.
Other times, like today, I can’t help it. I find every remark stings me. I hear “later” as “no” and find myself gritting my teeth at the rebuff.
I wish, I wish, I wish I got barbed tongue, too. I wish the katarayan they say I possess is so true.
I wish I wish I could curl up in bed and hide under the covers. But every day, each day, I have to put on a mask of bravery and pretend everything is okay.
I am superwoman, an impenetrable fortress.
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im sorry to hear this auee :-(
is this at work? i’ve been on the same boat. im not sure about the full context of your experience but in my case, i really had to fight back and assert myself.
having a lot of kakampi helps too.
I do need sounding board… kaya lang naka-leave kasi yung teammate ko.
The thing alam ko naman na ganito ang nature nang trabaho ko pero talagang minsan di ko maiwasang maapektuhan.
Pent-up anger should be released. It sure helps na huwag na lang din sabihin muna for the sake of civility but it also helps when we are able to express these feelings.
Hay, Auee, virtual hug sa yo
I am always supersensitive to slights, real or imagined. This is the reason I try to be very nice … so people would find no reason not be nice back.
Balat sibuyas. How to be balat gabi or even balat pinya or durian — na super prickly. Haha