Wow Huwebes na. Di ako makapaniwala nung Lunes ang sinasabi nga ni bossing “one day down, just four to go”. At eto na nga isang araw na lang. Kanina pa ko excited. Nung sumali nga ako sa kumpanya na ito inihanda ko na ang sarili ko sa pagiging busy, na malamang wala na kong gawin kundi magbasa (hindi novels, hindi interesting, para kong nag-uni uli), na malamang mag-trabaho ako ng sabado o pati ng linggo. Sa awa ng Diyos hindi naman ganoon, sa ngayon. Oo maraming trabaho, marami kong dapat basahin at aralin at alamin pero manageable naman. Sabi nga “it’s a good type of busy” hindi yung hindi na ko magkandaugaga.

Naka-schedule na din ang gagawin ko:
Okay Thursday ngayon, sana mamayang gabi hindi ako makatulog at matapos ko ng yung “intro to stock exchange” na libro.
Bukas, Friday, magpupuyat ako dahil pwede naman akong matulog ng hapon sa Sabado.
Manonood ako ng Ugly Betty tapos panonoorin ko na ang Syriana DVD na ni-rent ko 2 weeks ago pa!
Sa Sabado, sa umaga playtime & learning with my son. Sa hapon, tulog pagtulog ni anak then paggising malamang mag-bake ako ng chocolate cake. Pagsinipag ako malamang mag-jelly kami ng anak ko, mahilig yung makialam sa kusina e.
Sa Linggo, it’s also my day of rest & “no puyat” allowed. Simba, tulog at pahinga.

Linggo-linggo nakaplano ang weekend ko. Hindi pwedeng hindi, dahil bawat oras mahalaga para sa akin. Wala pa nga akong proper na “me time”. At marami pa kong minor projects:
ayusin ang file structure ng home PC ko
backup my PC
i-reorganise yung home office dahil nagkalat na ang documents namin, mostly mine
time for spring clean: palitan na ang nilulumot na mga kurtina, i-dust ang ibabaw ng mga cabinets, clean the windows inside and outside, downstairs and upstairs
biggest task of all: organise the shed — aacckkk

Ewan kung san ako kukuha ng sipag :-)

Wow Huwebes na. Di ako makapaniwala nung Lunes ang sinasabi nga ni bossing “one day down, just four to go”. At eto na nga isang araw na lang. Kanina pa ko excited. Nung sumali nga ako sa kumpanya na ito inihanda ko na ang sarili ko sa pagiging busy, na malamang wala na kong gawin kundi magbasa (hindi novels, hindi interesting, para kong nag-uni uli), na malamang mag-trabaho ako ng sabado o pati ng linggo. Sa awa ng Diyos hindi naman ganoon, sa ngayon. Oo maraming trabaho, marami kong dapat basahin at aralin at alamin pero manageable naman. Sabi nga “it’s a good type of busy” hindi yung hindi na ko magkandaugaga.

Naka-schedule na din ang gagawin ko:
Okay Thursday ngayon, sana mamayang gabi hindi ako makatulog at matapos ko ng yung “intro to stock exchange” na libro.
Bukas, Friday, magpupuyat ako dahil pwede naman akong matulog ng hapon sa Sabado.
Manonood ako ng Ugly Betty tapos panonoorin ko na ang Syriana DVD na ni-rent ko 2 weeks ago pa!
Sa Sabado, sa umaga playtime & learning with my son. Sa hapon, tulog pagtulog ni anak then paggising malamang mag-bake ako ng chocolate cake. Pagsinipag ako malamang mag-jelly kami ng anak ko, mahilig yung makialam sa kusina e.
Sa Linggo, it’s also my day of rest & “no puyat” allowed. Simba, tulog at pahinga.

Linggo-linggo nakaplano ang weekend ko. Hindi pwedeng hindi, dahil bawat oras mahalaga para sa akin. Wala pa nga akong proper na “me time”. At marami pa kong minor projects:
ayusin ang file structure ng home PC ko
backup my PC
i-reorganise yung home office dahil nagkalat na ang documents namin, mostly mine
time for spring clean: palitan na ang nilulumot na mga kurtina, i-dust ang ibabaw ng mga cabinets, clean the windows inside and outside, downstairs and upstairs
biggest task of all: organise the shed — aacckkk

Ewan kung san ako kukuha ng sipag :-)

Last night, I was trying on the clothes I bought online last weekend. My son was watching me very intently because I was parading back and forth our mirror and he’s so excited by colourful parcels I keep throwing on the bed.

When I tried on a monochrome tunic, his face lit up. I asked him if it was nice and he said “yeah”. Sa isip isip ko siguro nase-seksihan sa mummy nya. Then I stripped and tried on a cropped denim. He suddenly said “bigger”, confused I asked my 2-year old what he said and again he said “bigger”… Now ewan ko kung ano ibig nyang sabihin or nakakabasa ng isip ang anak ko pero I can only imagine him thinking “her bum looks bigger in this”…

This morning, I took my fave jeans out of the hanger. I haven’t used this pair for 3 weeks, lo and behold OMG I can hardly close the button & zip up!!! And I thought cutting out the rice at night was enough to at least not gain anymore. Yun pala tama ang anak ko “bigger” nga.

I whipped out the measuring tape which I haven’t used on my body for at least 2 years. I checked my waist, I checked several times. It was 32, well 31 if I suck in the fats hanging around. Then I measured my hips, wow 36, I can’t help but laugh. I still remember when I was 16 y/o my waist was just 24in. When I went home (Pinas) last April, my waist was just 28in, that’s when I bought my nice pair of jeans.

Anyway, I am squeezed into this pair of jeans. I will be all day and night if I don’t manage to take it off.

Two things happened to me, one was elating and the other was depressing.

Good news first. We celebrated hubby’s birthday by visiting the zoo we want to book for my son’s birthday next week. It was a good day for several reasons. The place was nice, the weather was perfect, my kid enjoyed feeding the elephants, and my hubby & I made up. We fought the night before, yes hours before his birth-time. S’ya kasi…

Bad news. I want to expunge my demons by doing what I’m about to, that is admit to stupidity. I came in a meeting unprepared eventhough I was hosting it. I introduced a third party provider to our CIO and everything’s going well. But I am well aware that I am ever so quiet eventhough the work really concerns my department. I have a reason for this, wala akong experience sa pag-vet ng consultancy firms. I don’t know what sensible questions I could ask them, as for technical ones, limited pa din dahil di naman techie people ang kaharap ko kundi sales/marketing rep lang. So what happened? After the roundabout, humarap si bossing sa kin asking what I think and how we ought to go about dealing with this firm? OH SHIT. I will spare myself the humiliating details, suffice to say buti na lang superhero yung dev manager and he caught my face on the way to then floor.

I came home last night feeling like a super big loser. How can I be so stupid? Why didn’t I think of the possibilities? I keep ramming it on my person. If I am a masochist, I’d be drawing lines across my wrists now. As obvious from this post, I can’t stop obssessing! Last night I can’t help sighing or muttering “gees” every few minutes until I fell asleep. Hubby was there to give me a hug, too & some choice pearls of wisdom that made me feel better and prepared next time. But still… You know, first impression crap and all.

Oh well, better start researching then?