May auditors daw na darating dito sa opis. Ewan kung sa buy-&-sell deal ito o galing sa investors namin. Basta sabi sa email ng CEO namin and I quote “no one is to talk to them without my express permission”… huh?

Ano ba kami mga bata? Considering the average age of the staff is probably 35, I find it very insulting.

Nung Tuesday naman, may dalawa akong scheduled na interviews for a contract position we’re hoping to fill in January. 15 minutes before my first appointment, kinausap ako ng CTO namin at di na daw kami pwedeng mag-hire ng kahit na sino until January. Eh? Di ba yun na nga ang gagawin namin? Sabi nya e wala daw pera at di daw namin malalaman kung kailan sa January pwedeng mag-labas ng pera. Okay… Pero bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi?? “Well, sorry is all I can say.” What the? Nakakahiya.

May naisip akong wrong timing naman. Ang official job title ko e hindi pa din binabago. Kaso kanina lang pumasok sa isip ko yun. So pagpasok ng bagong taon e kakausapin ko ang bossing ko to have that changed, it will be “company joke”. Nope it’s not a grammatical error. I do feel like a joke working for this company most of the time.

Enough about the griping, you say. Bakit di pa ko umalis? E kasi Pasko kaya, saka ganun ba kadali yun? Lalo na at ang laki ng gastos sa lupain na ito. Kelangan planado, so sana, sana makahanap ako agad next year ng lilipatan.

At the back of my mind though, it’s not that bad. The pay is decent, most of the people aren’t ogres. So acceptable na din ang situation ko, my complaint is more political than anything else. Araw-araw I just choose to “change my paradigm” & tell myself, “I’m lucky to have a job that pays more than others”.

There’s nothing like thinking you’re above others to make you feel better.

I didn’t get what I want, but I’d like to think I am getting what I need.

Pagkatapos kong basahin yung masasayang post & banters sa mga fave blogs ko, I felt better today. Or is it just because it’s Friday? Baka combination.

No matter. I tell myself that 2006 should close a few things in my life that I should never regret or at the very least let them affect me next month.

New Year’s resolution this early? Oo yata. Di naman ako magbabakasyon, I will be working between XMas & New Year, so ewan.

I resolve:
1. To find me a better workplace where I will feel valued and my hardwork is better compensated
2. To be a better person. I will not allow my frustration to get the better of me.
3. To control my temper at home. I will treat my husband & my son with the utmost courtesy.
4. To stop sweating the small stuff.

I would also like to add “I resolve to lose weight” but I don’t want to fail myself.