The friend whose father just died, gave birth to a boy last night. While we didn’t know yet, hubby casually said that life as you grow older is a plus or minus. True.

Then I called him to tell of the news & when he said he’s going to call our friend, I told him not to as she’s very tired. He goes “why?”…

Yup he’s a plus or minus example too.

Over the last two years, last few months, we’ve been hearing of friends, distant & close, losing their loved ones. Hubby & I also lost a couple. My lola, his lolo, my brother, his bestfriends dad & maybe in a few months his bestfriend’s mum. The causes are mostly known to them for a time, like Cancer & heart problems but a friend recently lost an 8-yr nephew completely by surprise. He just complained of a sprained ankle then a three days after he turned blue, heart attack killed him.

Then last night we received a call, my son’s godmother’s father passed away while watching the telly. They were just with him a few weeks ago when they went back to Pinas for holiday. Now he’s gone.

I am getting old. The people I knew growing up are getting older. My friends’ parents are dying one-by-one. And of course my parents will perish too. I just hope we have more time to share with them. I hope we don’t have any more “disagreements” when they leave. I hope we haven’t left anything unsaid. I hope we are able to give them the comfort & love they need. I hope it won’t be painful for them. I hope it doesn’t happen soon.

Each year just brings me closer to mortality but I’m not concerned about my own, I’m scared for my loved ones’ fate.